Its been quite a while since I last blogged. The last time I was just merely getting over a break up, trying to find my way out of the darkness. Guess what, I finally did..only to find myself sucked into another black hole in the present day.
Let me first begin by saying that I learned a lot from the experience that I encountered last year. I was toyed around and played with; taken advantaged of and hurt; misused and abused. I now know better, and I do hold my guard up quite high. After the breakup, and enduring more pain that was caused by others I lost over 30lbs, my body was feeling great, I was exercising everyday, eating good. I was prime. I was getting over the drama, the pain and heartache. I graduated from college and went to Vegas and Oahu for a few weeks to celebrate. I was great; I even stopped drinking.
I then came home from my vacation to no job, no school, CHANGE. The change took its toll on me, I was so used to working full time and going to school full time, I forgot how to relax and enjoy the time not needing to do anything. I was so lost and didn't know what to do with myself. I isolated myself at home, thought things over, sorted out who were really my friends, sorted out things in my life that needed much needed attention that I've been neglecting over the past year. Last year was such a blurr, everyday drunk, recovering and doing it all over again. I can't remember much but the pain, heartache and mistrust. The negatives.
But it was a new year and I was determined for change. I stopped drinking and started taking care of myself. Then my best friend left for basic training, I must say I became depressed, I let myself go. Since my best friend left, I put on half the weight I lost prior; I've started drinking excessively and a lot of the choices I have been making have not been the right ones.
As of right now at this very moment, I am determined to change my life around, stop drinking excessively, get back on the exercise bandwagon, and start eating healthy again. That is as much as I can do for my body.
For my heart, that is a totally different story. Oh I also started working at a new job, with Hilton Grand Vacations, its a stressful job but I am up for the challenge.
Just wanted to post an updated. I'll try to blog regularly again. More happy blogs though! Promise
