Just a Kiss

"it's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe, caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile, never opened up to anyone, so hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms."

The feeling of your touch, the sound of your voice, the look in your eyes, your sweet smile, your smell, your hair, your body, YOU..is forever embodied in my memories and is forever a part of my heart.  Wherever I go, wherever I turn, your presence is with me. The memories made at all my favorite places will forever haunt me each time I will return. My mind is on an endless repeat of everything that we have shared, everything that we have talked about, everything that we did.  The feeling of a broken heart, an empty void that will take time to heal and be whole again.  This all felt so real, so right and then out of the blue, everything gets ripped out from under me.  Each moment of sadness, each thought of you brings me down to my knees, thinking of what could've have been, what I could have done differently, what I could have said to make you stay or to have things back to the way they were.  Constant thoughts of how happy I may be, or how happy you are run through my mind like a raging river after a heavy storm....



"Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight, just a touch of the fire burning so bright no I don't wanna mess this  thing up and I don't wanna push too far..Just a shine in the dark that you just might...be the one I been waiting for my whole life, so baby I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight."

No, I didn't want to mess things up, I didn't want things to end. But with all feelings set aside, I knew things were going to end, just as anything else in life that comes and goes.  I wanted to take things slow, but with the expectations outweighing reality, things began to take its toll.  I was too caught up in the moments to really see what was really happening before my eyes... I was too caught up in your eyes, too caught up with your smile that YOU were all I ever wanted and that I had to do all that I could to have you.  In the end, I feel that I pushed you away..What was once only a kiss, a hug turned into a crazy love game that drove me insane.  Every time we saw each other, you always left me wanting more, you always left me feeling weak, but somehow I managed to get thru things day by day.  Just as I have to right now.

"no i don't want to say goodnight, I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dream tonight"

My mind is at a constant battle with my heart, my heart is weeping, while my mind is telling it to stop and stay strong.  You cant fix what is meant to be broken.   All the things I would do just to hold you tight again, to kiss you goodnight, to just be with you; I would give it my all, I would give up anything to just to hold you for a minute...just a kiss is all I ask for, a kiss goodbye...